Gosh, is anyone as depressed as I am about Christmas being over? I feel like I didn't do enough to celebrate. I didn't take many photos and this is a great year for Lucas. I mean he has so gotten into Santa and everything this year. His reaction when he came into see what was left Christmas morning was priceless. He is so cute, but trying at times. I sometimes wonder what God was thinking when he gave me that cutie patootie. I don't know what I would do if I didn't have him. He has kept me sane. I get up for him everyday and know that he is important and I am important to him. I have never been one to have a 'best friend' and he always ask me, 'are you still my best friend?' He is so sweet. I love him with all my heart. I just don't want to disappoint him. Sometimes, I feel like I let down my daughter with the divorce and all. Hopefully, he knows that I will always be there.....Oh yeah, he still has pull-ups. Drives me insane. He doesn't care! He wants to peepee in his pants...I can see him now in high school wearing a pullup. Of course, he will be pushing his mom around in a wheelchair. 'gosh I hope not' That reminds me, I am back on my diet, I know I have gained some weight back and that isn't what I want to do. Definitely, not what I want to do.....Till next time!
